Before I discovered Red Pill and MGTOW, I was a happy Nofapper just engaging in self-improvement. I would sometimes cry after reading about people's broken lives and how they were missing out on so many amazing women and feeling emotions in life. I was told that porn numbed your brain and nofap was the solution. Their success story would be getting a girlfriend and having deep connections with a warm glow of intimacy. I felt all kinds of emotions but I miss those days. I looked forward to waking up every morning.

But no matter what, I was never able to write a nofap success story. I started to despair and visited FA more often. I could never make family and friends feel proud of myself. They were comparing me to my peers saying that these people are so mature they are real men with amazing personalities but you are still single because you are boring. I might have discovered MGTOW earlier than my peers but it has made me depressed and numb knowing that I can never enjoy the romance my peers are having. I don't even care what happens anymore. I have no desire to make more money or impress anyone.

I just want to feel alive again like I was before I discovered all of this. How can you feel emotion? To find peace within yourself