Did you realize that we are only animals and that everything is just an artificial construct ?

I had to come to that cold realization because i am a minority.

i will try not to victimize myself but i found out early in life that being different is not positive. You get rejected by men, women and your own family. Your childhood is shitty and when you trust people they screw you because you are expandable like a sub human species.

In the feudal ages, i would have been burnt alive for fun. Nowadays I do the shit work other pure race men don't want to do by being paid less.

Of course women are out of question unless you like fat and being used for your money.

I really loved civilization because i thought i would get my chance by being the best i can, work hard and make a difference in the world. I was a public servant but even then when shit hits the fan guess who is chosen to be the scapegoat.

Alone and with the expectation that people will extra screw you because of who you are doesn't make life enjoyable or worth living.

You give away far much more than you ever receive.