I was with my girlfriend for about 2 years, and I was very unhappy. I dumped her probably 5 or 6 times over the course of those 2 years, but she'd always come crawling back on her hands and knees, fuck me, and I'd let it go. I was miserable though. The irony being, she eventually dumped me almost exactly a year ago now. I admit it was pretty tough at first, but I got through. I was even happy for a while.

Lately though, like the last 2 weeks, I've been struggling very badly. It almost feels like it did when it first happened. I think about her constantly, I rarely sleep, and when I do, I dream about her. There's this little portion of my brain nagging at me that I made a huge mistake, that I lost this mystical temptress who I was supposed to be with, and I should beat the shit out of her boyfriend and take her back. It's really fucking maddening.

What's wrong with me? Why am I feeling this way all of a sudden again? How do I cure myself of this cancer for life? I'll do anything.