Admit to yourself that the anger was always there. Not because of you, but because of the way people and especially women have treated you in the past. Its a natural reaction.

Let it take over for a while, those are your feelings after all, so it can fill every part of your body with hate and disgust for society and the unjustice going on around you everyday.

But in time, when your anger has healed you and made you stronger, you will inevitabely come to the crossrads where you can choose for yourself if it is better to self destruct and be miserable for the rest of your life or to turn your anger into motivation, replace it with willpower and become a better more powerful version of your former self.

No one has it easy in life but it is you who can make the best or worst of it.