So at work I started catching feelings for this attractive older coworker...well call her Audrey. Because of mgtow and because she is a coworker. I wouldn't commit or approach her romantically but we did have conversations via text and tbh I liked her. She played the nawalt role well. There was a few times she would give me a ride to restaurants to pick up food or grocery store on breaks but I stayed reserved and didn't show my cards (but I wanted to). On these rides we would talk about relationships and she would tell me how she wanted to have someone in her life.

Yesterday she texts me and says she wants to grab lunch and I'm like I'll go. So she takes me to a restaurant and to my surprise she decides to eat in. She's real pretty and I was simping but I still wouldn't engage her. She offers me her food pays for her own meal without me even asking. I was impressed. I'm thinking I found a unicorn and I'm thinking to myself maybe mgtow is wrong...(it isn't) anyway today I decided to work overtime and I report to my desk. I guess she forgot that I was working overtime because she went to my floor with the other guy she's talking to (it's obvious she is fucking him) she looked suprised to see me and scurried away with her (I'm guessing boyfriend) I maintained frame though and spoke in a very friendly tone but in actuality I was very dissapointed not in her but myself.

And to be honest I feel hurt but I am thankful that I was exposed to mgtow because I probably would have gave in a long time ago and would have ended up being hurt (more than I am now) or decieved into a relationship that could have seriously destroyed everything I worked for.

Lesson learned. From this point forward I will refrain from letting my emotions get the best of me.