I know this goes against so much advice on here but I have been thinking about one of my exes a lot recently. I'm 25 and she is 24 / we broke up ~5years ago and havent spoken since. She was my first real relationship and we lost our virginities to eachother.

I wasn't in a good place back then and years after (I started smoking a lot of pot - had no real ambition.) Last January '19 I started bettering myself and I feel that I am finally in a really good place. I didnt want to contact her again until I was in a better place.

I regret the relationship ending because it was mainly my fault. I saw on Instagram that her most recent ex broke up with her around this past valentine's day and thought to myself, "wow, we're both single again and I am finally in a good place, maybe this is worth another shot" I didn't think it was appropriate to contact her shortly after her breakup but I felt 2 months was sufficient - so I decided to reach out and send her a message.

I've attached my message and her reply. I'm somewhat autistic when it comes to women and dont know how to/when to reply. I get the sense that she doesnt want to talk to me - but I really dont know. I made sure that she can't see that I read her message so that I could have time to figure out how to proceed. I would greatly appreciate some help. Thanks guys.

https://imgur.com/gallery/1X0W5va