Hi everyone.

I want to start this off by saying that my goal in life is to have a traditional relationship and find this as soon as possible(preferably when I hit early twenties). I am still 18-19, and for me it's very hard to stick to that traditional figure, this often happens when I am meeting new people, peers, etc. It feels like I am deceiving them about who I really am. And that is the thing, I consider myself a traditional woman, with good values. But when people talk to me and get to know me better, they often say, 'well your attitude does not seem to fit 'the traditional type' '. I feel like I know how to incorporate traditional habits in my lifestyle, however when it comes to my attitude men find me too pushy and that I ask for too much, I do have the habit of bossing people around. I have no idea if this is me, and i haven't been in a LTR in a long time, I am feeling so fed up and tbh i do enjoy having control over my partner, what can I do to change my attitude and straighten to change into a woman who is fit to get marry and have a traditional life?