Ill try to cut to the chase, got my heart broken in my early 20s by my daughters mother (whose doing terrible now and really fat #karma).

2nd relationship i was used by the "hot girl" from the projects (again, really fat and doing bad).

Had a phase of dating younger girls to fuel my ego..

Since then i went celebate (going on 2 years) and really just focused on me, im now making 130k a year, own a house, working on my 2nd property, investing in stock, no debt etc.

My daughter is 17 ive had custody for 5 years. Shes doing great, takes after me 100%.

My thing is, at this point i dont want anything to do with women/relationships to be honest. Ill only go on a date if shes paying or we go dutch. Im honestly afraid to even get in bed with a woman at this point, i go on a few dates and i can literally see them trying to get their claws into me..im just thru.

But my question is, for the first time in my life im thinking of just paying for sex. Just once or twice a month. Problem is im terrified of getting caught.. anyone have any experience in this?