I just visited my mother and she asked how I was due to recently finishing with someone. I told her I’m done with being in relationships. She said that’s stupid, not all women are the same. She then said I want to see you settled with someone before I die. I couldn’t help but think she’s a woman she should know how women are, so her saying that says she wants to see me unhappy and trapped before she dies. She then started saying nasty things about my dead father talking to her like shit, combined with him cheating on her.

I never told her before but I said if dad was cheating I never saw it I only heard it from you. And what about “John” that was a friend of your friend, he came over with his partner you got drunk and flirted with him with me in the room and dad and you didn’t give a fuck, dad told everyone to leave and dragged you into the bedroom for a row. You broke my heart that night and humiliated my father, then 12 years later I come home and johns standing in the kitchen talking with you. She went silent and has stayed in the other room for the rest of the day. There’s was another occasion I wanted to let her know that I know of but fuck it. The woman caused me to be involved in an accident where I seriously injured(head) because she neglected her duties.

I remember my dad trying to please her always. Everything he done he done with us in mind. He never left and was always there but we were distant due to the shit she told me about him while growing up. When I realised how hard he had it and he was good it was too late to reconcile.