Hi,
So a quick background of me: I'm 19 in August, in college on a scholarship for a liberal arts degree (stupid but free college). Was homeschooled my whole life, mostly a single mom situation with no father figure. I was in a LTR for a year and got broken up with over text. I'll admit, I was a beta male - while I was not a perfect boyfriend, I let myself get abused, both physically and emotionally by her during our time together, and I cried every day for a month straight after the breakup, and I begged her to take me back while she ignored me and ghosted me. Absolutely shameful, I know.
However, I'm not blue pill, and I've changed a lot after that breakup. I was always very Republican, pro mens rights, love guns (own a rifle). Now, I don't give a rat's ass about her after what she did to me. I've taken some steps to get myself on the right path. I've been working on a mobile app I'm trying to launch this summer, I got myself a gym membership again (I used to work out before meeting my gf but then I got off my purpose). I'm reading Jordan Peterson's 12 Rules for Life.
I do have some things going for me: I'm not fat (5ft 10, 160lbs) and I'm completely financially secure (no I don't drive an Audi but especially for my age, I have no financial worries), and I like being an introvert.
But my question is, what do I do? Sometimes when I go to bed, I still hug a pillow and cry, wishing I had someone to sleep with, someone to hug and kiss when I wake up. Today I took a long drive (I love driving) and I cried because I felt so lonely. They're feelings that just come to me and I don't know how to deal with them. Since I spent 18 years locked at home, I detest social events and don't have friends. My college is a shitshow of communists, even though it's basically on the border with West Virginia. Yes I know people there, but I do not want to waste my time with literally self-described communists.
What do you guys do? Is it just time for me to go full MGTOW, or can these feelings of loneliness be fixed by finding good guys to spend quality time with and/or hookups?
Thank you for any advice.
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