Quarantine has taken me off autopilot and making me reflect on why I went MGTOW. It's given me a lot of time to think about death and all the philosophy behind it. I think I'm starting to get panic attacks about the idea of dying alone.

I just cant stop thinking about nothingness and the void after death or if religion exists will I burn in hell forever. All this empty time is giving me too many scary thoughts.

Quarantine has made me reflect on my 20s more than usual, and I feel this overwhelming blandness with life right now. Is this all that's left of life? Get married, raise kids, tuck away more money, how I'm healthy enough to enjoy it all later?