Hi all,

1) Sometimes while talking to a female friend / acquaintance, my eyes will kinda just somehow lose control and glance at her chest for a quick second, and I notice that they notice (but didn't say anything). Is this normal for guys? Because when I inadvertly do this, I feel extremely guilty, perverted and disgusted at myself, and all I can think about for the whole day is "Will she think I'm a rapist or molestor?". How do I fix this?

2) 2nd question is more of a social issue. Let's say I enter a room where my friends are gathering, or I arrive at a meetup place in the park, where others have already arrived and are happily chatting among themselves. I always feel very unwelcomed to the group (which may not be the case and it's just my mind playing tricks on me as always). It's like everyone already has some rapport and momentum going on while because I'm late (due to factors outside my control), it feels hard to "break in" and "warm up". How do I fix this?

Also, are there any good redpill books to read (Amazon Kindle) besides the rationale male? I find it kinda dry and academic.