What would TRP do if they found themselves in this situation? I’ve tried medication, therapy, hospitals you name it and I’m still stuck in the same pit. I’ve tried to be more optimistic, more positive but that seems to only make things worse for me. I’ve got a job, a car, a place. There are things that I want that aren’t available to me but I feel like I’ve done a pretty good job of coming to terms with those things. It’s just I wake up and whatever’s supposed to be there to get your motor running, well I don’t have it or it’s broken. I’d much rather not be alive having to deal with all of the stupidity of modern day life. Probably a stupid question, but I’ve found myself holding a gun to my head these last few nights so I figured what could it hurt to ask?