I’ll just be straight up here.

Due to extreme religious/Cult conditioning and my mothers murder as a kid, I didn’t get a lot of the normal experiences that many would get with girls in teen years. Was strictly instructed to not make eye contact with women outside the family.

Was in an all boys school through high school as well.

The good news?

I got a few jobs, went to university and snapped out of it with regards to at least making friends with girls and breaking barriers.

I’m quite tall (6’6) do BJJ (blue belt) and lift (235 BP, 415 DL). I have a good job working in Web Dev, etc.

I do most of the RP prescribed stuff. I’m getting money, lifting, reading, only taking freezing showers and lately shooting shots on girls. Shooting shots is the scariest thing in the fucking world for me to do unless girls fall in my lap.

I’ve polarized ten girls total the past few months and most of these happened recently, so I’m very happy for attacking that mental block head on.

I went 3/10, and the three were very average looking.

One girl who’s much more attractive that I had oneitis for (did 11 dates total) has lately turned extremely shitty. I had invited her out, she agreed and then flaked without a word to cancel.

I broke frame, honestly because I have little experience. But internally I knew it was wrong to tolerate that nonsense. So I told her as calm as possible in a text, “You chose to be disrespectful, I literally didn’t do shit to you. Our relationship is now over. Be safe out there.”

She blew up and got upset saying it was a misunderstanding and that her mother was hospitalized. That she swore everything was okay and apologized profusely.

Against my better judgement, I let it go.

Then a couple months later, she did nearly the exact same thing. Agreed to a day/time, and then literally showed me up.

Quite honestly, I struggled for a few days with the thought of what I would do to her if I saw her somewhere. Again, this is just my complete honesty here.

I generally don’t get people anywhere going out of their way to show me up. Maybe this is something that happens with women sometimes, but I’ve never had anyone literally agree to any kind of day/time plans and then literally not even cancel.

I legit even started therapy this past few weeks because I legitimately am afraid that I’ll heel-hook her if I see her. It was just so insulting I couldn’t believe it.

Apart from what I’m doing, is there anything else I should do?