I've been MGTOW since 2018 when my long term partner of 7 years left me for another guy. Since then I've gone through phases of going monk right the way through to banging random tinder chicks. All in all, it wasn't fulfilling - it was regretful and shameful really. Despite taking the red pill, 5% of my mind was still blue-pilled and in my head, 95% of women were AWALT and I thought maybe there's a 5% chance there's a good one out there....somewhere.

Anyway, all my friends, family and colleagues are all settled down. I've got NO-ONE. I live alone. I do everything alone. Eat, sleep etc The only interaction I get is with colleagues and 1-2 friends that I've not seen since before covid hit.

So I met a woman online, let's call her "Jenny". Jenny worked in a thai massage parlour (she was Thai). Now, I've NEVER been to one. I had absolutely no f*cking clue what happens there. Anyway, we bang on the first night (red flag #1) and we decide to continue meeting up.

2-3 months into the "relationship" she keeps getting messages from loads of guys. One day I checked her phone and saw 2 things: she had 600+ contacts. What. The. Fuck. 600?! (Red flag #2). Then I saw a picture of her in bed with another guy (red flag #3). I confronted her and she admitted she'd cheated and fucked him for £350 ($500). I recently called it off with her and during that time, she actually fucked someone else for £120 ($160).

A long ass story cut short: she is a thai massage woman who gives happy endings for £££. I found some "reviews" of her online and it looks like she's been in that lifestyle since around 2018 until now. She has told me she wants to get out of that life etc etc etc (I call BS).

The 600 contacts were mainly those who have had happy endings and shit from her. I confronted her and got her to admit what she'd been doing and keeping from me. She literally has a totally hidden, secret, separate life to the normal one she portrays.

Why am I sharing this with you MGTOW? Well, for me it re-enforced MGTOW. AWALT (100%, not 95% as I previously thought). I wont lie, i'm only human and I do care about this woman. Once she had taken around 10-15 tablets and I raced my car over there, called an ambulance and stayed with her all night to make sure she was ok.

So whilst I don't *hate* her, it has just fully confirmed to me that unfortunately in this life, MGTOW is our only option. I've dated "regular", "normal" girls and they've cheated. I've dated the woman in this story and she cheated multiple times. Hypergamy is very real.

I need to find a hobby and purpose in life. I feel depressed as fuck if I'm honest. I've been chewed up and spit out by women my entire dating life.