i dropped out of college after one month but told my parents i finished 3 semesters. (not their money)

i took tiny bits of my roommates weed for like a month straight

i ate my roommates food a few times and replaced it without telling him

i sent people really rude hateful (non threatening) messages over playstation. Like dozens of people, for stupid petty reasons out of anger

i have a bunch of student debt and no job, and i havent tried to get a job for 3 months, started looking/apply yesterday only.

i have to go on welfare to pay rent this month

my brother recently started doing crack. hes like 19 and im scared as fuck cuz hes hangin wit low lifes who were arested before. i want to be a role model but im a fucking loser in life so far, he only listens to me so much

my ex gf aborted my child. every time i think of this im really sad. I think of holding my baby and manning up to be a father for it, then i think of the dr. that tore its limbs off and crushed its skull in the abortion. it makes me so sad. even more because since then, over a year ago, my life has been at a standstill, no income no skills no girls, no lifting, I wouldve been a terrible dad if this is how i behaved. this shit really makes me cry man. it sucks.