Let me start off by saying I am beta as they come. Ive swallowed the blue pill every morning I wake up. I want to take a journey and come out an alpha. But I need your help.

I'm an 18 year old college freshman. I'm average in looks. 6'1, skinny, pale white. I'm a computer technician I bring in around 12,000 a year but that's pretty good for my age. I live with my girlfriend in a 1 bedroom apartment. I'm barley making rent and don't have money from mom and dad. I've never Been good with girls but I have talked to them and I sleep with my current girlfriend almost daily. With that being said I've only been with her. I'm not very strong but am not out of shape. I did hurdles In high school and was a second string safety on varsity football. That will give you an idea of my build. I'm pretty smart I make good grades and keep up with current events and know a lot about subjects that I'm interested in. I have good taste in music and watch tons of movies and shows. I like anime but not the weird hentai shit. I go outdoors and for the most part live a pretty productive lifestyle. I've always been a nice guy and tried to help people and sympathize with people. I'm a Christian but I don't go to church or read much.

Now that I've I Introduce myself, let me explain my problem. It's my girlfriend we've been together on and off for about 2 years now. Long story short she's a whore. She's been around, a lot. She's cheated and lied and is a pretty bad girlfriend. But I'm blinded by sex and she's pretty fucking hot. The guys she did fuck were complete alphas who got tons of Pussy. She acts like she loves me and says she wants to marry and have kids with me. Don't worry I havnt fallen for that shit since our first break up. But I do keep giving her second chances. Very recently I noticed that moving in with her and forgiving her was the biggest mistake of my life. But it's only been 3 months since we moved in. If I did have the balls to break up with her where would I go? I can't pay rent by myself. And she would probably get to stay since she makes more. My parents live an hour away. My job and school are within 10 minutes from my apartment. Even if I did move back to my parents house I would have to pay her rent and utilities because of my lease. I live in one of the cheapest apartments in town and I live in a college town so there isn't many apartments still open that are cheap. My friends still live in my old town and don't want to move out. My strategy now is to wait until the end of my lease and finally be done with her. But I am beta so what good are my strategies. She's probably cheating on me in my own house and she's like never home.

I'm a complete cuck. What do I do.