Hello everyone. I'm 19 years old, portuguese, and im a newbie when it comes to everything related to TRP. It's my first time posting anything related to TRP or to anything in general. As the tilte says, i broke up with my LTR. We have been together since i was 17. I only started reading and getting interested in TRP after we broke up. I was a typical blue pill beta, doing everything she wanted, complimenting her everyday, texting her "good morning" and "good night" everyday, buying her gifts and (fucking hell...) decided to wear rings on our fingers when we were dateing for only 3 months... Now, we broke up. I'm already trying to meet new people, as it has been 1 month, which i spent 3 weeks in my house, without ever going out or to college, ruining my life because of her. The other day, my mom decided to visit me (im living with my grandparents because I got out of my parents house for almost 2 months now, due to a few problems) and the first thing she said was "I heard u went out last night. Did you know that (LTR) has been crying everyday? Did you know that she is not happy anymore, so drained and so sad." And i was like thinking "I didn't go out for 3 fking weeks..." So i told her: I'm your son. Shouldn't you listen to my version of the story? And, do you think I enjoy this? Do you think I'm not sad or drained as well?!" Then she started asking who I was with last night. She knows my friends, except one of them. So she told me "I don't know what you were all doing, you seem tired so I assume it was a late party, and I really would like to know what you are doing with your life". I mean... she knows my best friend since I was 13, which was when we met, and she always loved him and treated him really well. All of a sudden this became so weird to me, like, why was she talking about my friends like that, when it was always fine for her? So i had a break down... I just didn't handle the situation well... got so mad because my own mom was telling me to fix the mistakes I made because "she is not handling the situation". For fucks sake, a child telling me to grow up. I was so angry that I did something really really stupid. I went to her facebook since i knew her password. She had huuuge conversation with my mom where they said stuff like "it's ok girl, you can do this. You will surpass this and forget him. He doesn't deserve you" or "We are with you! He's so immature and childish, has a lot to grow!" And there was actually a part where my step dad said "you were the one who gave him responsabilities, without you he's lost now... we need to do something because he's going to ruin his life now." Believe me, my life is just fine. I'm moving on, I'm no longer 24/7 sexually frustrated nor angry towards myself. I love me. The problem now is: my whole family is against me. They are constantly telling me stuff like "you are going to die alone, you need to change yourself. no girl will want you." I can't have a normal day without my mom calling me to insult me. The bigger problem is that I smoke weed, i drink, etc My parents are really small minded. If they knew i touched a cigarrett, they would try to make me a priest. As a LTR, she knew everything about me. She's starting to reveal them all my dirts, all the things that can be used against me. I'm afraid if I can't stop her, she will trun them more and more against me, as well as revealing to them things that I dont want to be revealed. Just as an example, I can't even say the word "dumb" near my parents, as they take it as an insult. My step dad beats me up constantly, and my mom has signs of schyzhofrenia (even tough she doesnt want to go to the doctor to be sure). What ever I do, they will nag me and beat me up constantly, even in my grandparents house, as long as I "start being different towards my ex."