Why/What you'll get from reading this?

A well-thought-out theory on Redpill thinking and it's long-term consequences.

What do I want?

A discussion on the ideas.

Please give these ideas a chance, Why actually pay attention? it could be important for your mental health and help you win in life.

Summary: Difficult family life. Create Low self-esteem men. Who enters the dating world. Don't find success or meet equally low self-esteem women. Get scarred. Come to Redpill. Meet other low self-esteem men, find companionship and similar thinking. Create strategies to succeed. Find success yet still miserable and unhappy. Blame it all on women or society - Keep getting angrier until they alienate everyone and die a sad death as social outcasts.

My story: Broken family. Constant fighting between parents. Angry father. Instills - Toxic levels of the painful emotion shame inside me from a young age. Overprotective mother but she also doesn't know how to care for kids. Faulty parenting = Faulty kids = low self-esteem & toxic shame inside kids. After age 5.. sent out to school with normal healthy kids and teachers. These kids and teachers shame the faulty kid further. Shame and self-esteem plummet further. By now the kid has developed Narcissistic tendencies to show face in society. Finish school..leave for university..enter the dating world. Narcissistic tendencies = being an asshole stemming from low self-esteem = normal healthy girls intrigued by you but they are boring whereas out of control crazy girls far more appealing. Crazy girls scar you. more shame.

Find Redpill. Find identification. Apply the thinking. Makes sense. Get a bit more success but these strategies work mainly (not sure) on broken girls. They traumatize you further. Self-esteem and shame still with you. Shame turns to anger towards everyone. Get angry at women for your problems. Anger and shame grow day by day... until you see the death of your Grandad who was naturally red-pilled and gave me this wisdom early on.. who exactly like you was an absolutely ashamed guy internally who could not stop being an asshole...and his family was relieved he was dead. Dies a terrible death. You look at your life...riddled with addictions to soothe the shame. whether it is sex, power, money, food, etc.

What is my point?

The core problem is low self-esteem and shame that are causing the dysfunction. Fix that and you'll be accepted by society and not ashamed anymore. Basically means changing your personality altogether. You won't feel the need to come to quarantined subreddits like Redpill and you won't get radicalized. This subreddit may be true for the crazy girls, the broken girls, and the assholes, but there are healthy girls and nice guys out there. They are far happier. The solution is not bigger cars, money, girls, power. It's what healthy people have = healthy love.

Solution

My solution is joining a 12 step program and spiritually changing into a "nice guy" but it's very difficult to let go of narcissistic tendencies. I keep reverting back and I wonder if I'll ever be able to change..

Also imagine how many assholes there are in the world...you'll just be one of the many...imagine you could control yourself and be by nature an asshole but can morph into a nice guy..you'll die a heroes death rather than my Grandad's "animal" death.

Peace