So I am 28 and I was MGTOW for 5 years until I had a moment of weakness and got on Bumble and was curious and met a girl from my own culture, religion etc and thought that she was NAWALT.

I just broke up with this girl today and my emotions are all over the place

There was so many things that I didn't like about her such as she did drugs with her ex, she had risky sex in the car etc. in a very conservative country where you can get in serious jail time for it. I tried to forget these things but the drugs was really always coming into my head. She never told me this upfront and I remember the first thing I told her when I met her was my biggest dealbreaker would be drugs because I have never done it myself and I would never want it in my family.

Then about 20 days in the relationship she dropped the bomb that she did it. I was confused and hurt but she first said "my ex made me do it" and she blamed him and that she was just a victim. I felt bad for her and said ok it's fine I forgive all this and lets just move on and continue.. but the nagging thought of it came into my mind what kind of drugs etc etc?

So I bought the topic up and then boom she started to cry and said "You don't need to know about my past... it's not important only the present is" but I said if I want to actually have a relationship with you I need to know your past as well but then she would cry for no reason....

We made up etc. I apologized for asking etc. which was my fault I should have left back then.. then she told me "It was just an experience and drugs isn't that bad but I won't do it again etc." then another bomb dropped she said "When I moved to the UK I tried it twice or thrice with a friend" but then I said you just said your ex made you do it and he went to jail for it and you still wanted to try it ? And It occoured to me this was something SHE WANTED TO DO ! and was just blaming her ex for her poor choices of her life and her decisions.

Now I constantly felt like I was a SIMP that she wanted to settle down with because she bought up topics about children etc after riding the CC and doing drugs with these random friends of her's and said that's in the past and I am different now!! I am changed!! I was not comfortable at all and it was always at the back of my mind which led to arguments and anytime I asked her anything she kept saying I was interrogating her which is completely not true I just think it's important to know about someone's past if you are going to have a relationship with them.

I had to break it off today gentlemen. I don't have a good support system so I am posting here but I needed to get it off my chest it's been only 5 months but I knew my own worth and I knew this is something that would end bad in the end.