Ever since I learned to always be closing, I've had a good batting average closing girls on the first encounter no matter where I met them from.

Recently, I met a couple women and we went out a few days apart, and they both politely stopped my escalation before it reached the crucial moment.

It's kind of fucking with my head, mostly because I don't feel anxious or bad at all about it. I'm looking forward to absolutely demolishing them the next time I see them. I feel almost like I should feel that there's something wrong, though, since I'm so used to just fucking right away.

Is this me just getting used to real abundance, getting used to being the prize? I'm not worried about fucking so much, since I've got backup bitches in my phone for quick use, but also lately I've made a serious career change and am extremely focused on that and women just seem so incredibly secondary now to me. This has also insanely boosted my confidence because I legitimately don't give a fuck anymore about them.

Some voice in the back of my head is nagging me about beta bucks and all that stuff, but I haven't spent a dime on them, as per usual. That same voice tells me they're trying to extract commitment, or "make me wait", but isn't that what women do always anyway?

I think for whatever reason some part of me is trying to invent a problem about this. Any ideas?