How important a touch is to me? Why is it so critical to me that I have to be touched?

These questions have began after a small event. I was eating my lunch with two co-workers (females), they were already in the middle of talking about their experiences being sexually abused (weird place to talk about it, no?) .

I thought to my-self: "Rayzond, don't you dare say a word, if they ask you anything, you nod your head with acceptance and say something like 'yeah that's awful!"

Of course that's far from what I think, but I didn't fully know why it feels like this, why is it so hard for me to be empathic towards women talking about being touched inappropriately?

I'll break this down to 3 things:

  1. Feels cheesy to me - it's hard for me to to relate to people who exaggerate with their stories, one of the main reasons I hate listening to "successful people" telling you their "success stories", always feels like complete BS because they usually have no real clue how they end up being relevant, they just make up a story, and tell you things like "all you meed is to be consistant and willing, or be like me".

I often feel that people who share their "sexually abused story" usually exaggerate just so people feel bad for them and support them.

  1. Fell bad for me you stranger! - this subject about intimacy, physical intimacy, and sharing your physical intimacy with random people, it reeks of unhealthy personal boundaries.

I ultimately believe that the things that are the most personal to you should be left either to you alone, or people who feel close to you and actually want to hear your shit (I know this is ironic since I post this subjecy on reddit, so be it).

  1. The hard truth - touch is addictive, it feeds those who crave for it, they just want more of it.

This extremly depends on who touch you and how.

I'll be frank, I'l like to touch people, I hug with my family, my good friends, I fistbump with "close co-workers" but of course I choose who to touch with.

The 3rd point made me question whether or not I don't relate to the original conversation, but then it popped like an ice-burg infront of a titanic:

I experienced physical abuse too, and almost never received support or help to recover from it by others.

What is the difference then? The terms, I guess I wasn't so called "sexually abused", but there are so many ways of being abused physically otherwise.

I won't elaborate on this further more since it start to slide into a more personal level.

There's no conclusion to this, I just wanted to share my thoughts regarding a subject often unspoken in public.