Just got curious about it. Here is how was mine.

I can't remember of ever wanting to get married or having children, but I always wanted a partner. Someone who could be before anything, a great friend. I had a few attempts that mostly end up with me in tears for being heartbroken. I think the last time was 10 years ago, when I was 28. One month after a lot of intimacy (not just physical), she wrote me an e-mail saying that she would go back to her former fiance.

One year after that, I discovered that I could go online and invite woman straight to my house to wake me up with a blowjob, or any time of the day, really. I went into a promiscuity spree for about five years, until I met someone that really got me. It was funny. I was madly in love for the girl that I met, but completely relieved for the women that I left one year later.

Two months later I went back to sex delivery. Met a woman and proposed a challenge. Would she come to my house, take of her clothes before even touching me, and have a blowjob as first physical contact? She did. But then for some reason it wasn't that interesting anymore. I can't say what it was.

I tried to have some more serious talk with other woman, but it unfruitful. It was like a wasteland. I asked a female friend what happened during this one single year that I've been out of the pool. She laughed. "Maybe you?", but then went on saying that yes, things are this weird currently, and today completely understand my desire to literally run to the hills.