ehhhh fuck guys just fuck this life for now. For more then 5 years i'm losing in everything that i touch or do. It looks impossible that i literrally pissed out and jerked off five years. Fuck everything. It so god damn sad when you don't have anyone to talk with, even when i did i couldn't talk about this, because it made people look weak in eyes of others. I'm going to the gym for half a decade and still look like i didn't pass first month of gym. I don't have strength to do even dips, my main lifts are like a girls. I try to eat 3700 and not move anywhwre(and fuck mfp 1000+ days if im not moving forward).

Never had GF, never had sex. People say sex made their styding more productive and better. Also i failed two years at university. While my generation is 3rd year i'm still at 1st with only 3 subjects passed. Not even want to ask for help or what to do. This is just painful realisation, it hurts. I thought that maybe nofap would make a difference(im on month 5) and it didn't, complete failure