It's been one continuous nightmare.

To this date, I've powered through a harsh background to almost becoming a Naval Education Officer with the hope of doing some good in the world; unfortunately I broke a few hearts during university, and a few girls cheated on their partners to be with me. Now, one of those girls is trying to cover her tracks and has decided to twist the truth - but on top of that, she has managed to get my other exes to make the most ridiculous claims because otherwise she has no evidence. My mental health has never suffered before...but for this first time I feel like I'm going mad, because it seems like the world is ignoring the truth.

For those who don't know, in the UK, crimes of this nature are usually 'he said she said', but if even one more individual testifies to a similar thing, it counts as evidence through a pattern. I can't and will not going into the explicit details for the integrity of the justice system, but I am facing over 20 charges, with many of them being sexual assault and rape on multiple occasions. The problem is, the stories and lies that the girls have told don't add up, and it's clear that the girls are simply covering their tracks. Unfortunately for me, many of these charges involve 'emotional and mental manipulation' and so any obvious anomaly is treated as though I had a hold over them.

The thing is that four out of these five girls are part of the same close friendship group, and they all absolutely despise men. I'm not sure what triggered this reaction, but nobody is taking notice of these facts. The girl that initiated this is claiming that we were dating Dec-Feb and then Aug-Sep and that during these times I repeatedly raped and beat her 3 or 4 times per week in the same house I shared with four flat mates. I can't believe the sheer volume of lies and utter fabrication in this - not only did she get my room in the flat wrong in her statement AND claim that my flatmates were at Uni (we were on the same courses), but she is clearly trying to lie to the police and her partner (who she cheated on and broke up with for me) but the six month break was actually only two and a half weeks but coincidently falls on the dates she 'got back with' her boyfriend.

She has then recruited two other girls who despised me for moving on and admittedly being unfaithful, and their stories don't add up either. One girl claimed I held her at knifepoint when we met and raped her, started a relationship with me for three months, then three years later came back to my flat, not thinking I was there, and was apparently raped again for a month. There is so much evidence (and in my mind common sense) that these are all lies, but whenever I argue this the police state "she didn't realised she was raped until years later" and "you emotionally manipulated her." The other girl claimed she bumped her head one time on the headboard and that this now constitutes as rape. The final girl claims that she hated having sex on her period but did so to please me, and that this also constitutes rape. Over about 40 times. Most importantly, the girls were talking to one another before I was arrested and everyone is ignoring the fact that in the village the girls have been recorded talking ti one another about this and referring to it as "the gossip".

I feel like I'm losing my mind. I've finally aced 8 years of University, moved in with the love of my life who has testified to a happy year long relationship, and I was preparing for my dream job. I live in a small University town and now everyone knows about this, judges me, my job is being furloughed indefinitely and I can't apply for a PhD or alternative job because of the accusations. The age limit on my naval career is about to run out in a couple of years and this case isn't going anywhere for the next year at least.

Obviously these are obvious lies, but the other charges are so complex and specific that I'm terrified. Nobody is acknowledging the truth. Nobody is acknowledging the inaccuracies, the obvious lies, the clear communications between the girl - whose friends (and witnesses) are all posting "we'd rather support a potential liar than a potential rapist - and my life is now ruined for the moment. I keep wanting this to come to court so we can solve this, but the police are on a fishing expedition and clearly contorting what the girls say to fit the profile.

I have five girls, a witness list of friends and relatives who all "saw and heard" but didn't mention it until up to 8 years later. The police have confiscated my phone so I can't access photos or messages, the father of one of the girls is a political figure here, and the lifetime of attempting to help others is now about to run to an end because of lies. I've managed to fight through all the adversities in life, and have so many younger brothers and sisters to inspire, but I feel like this is the end. These five girls all dated me for 6-12 months. The relationships weren't perfect (like most that end) but my 3 year and 1 year partner are being ignored, and these girls who have a galaxy of up and down mental health issues, drug use, and alcohol abuse are being trusted. I have no evidence against, but their stories are all eerily aligned but with evident lies. My girlfriend describes the questions as hugely leading, close ended, and deliberately vague e.g "is your sex life normal" and "did he ever just start undressing you in a moment of passion (obviously leading to suggest I take what I want)."

I've never experienced suicidal thoughts, but every moment that passes I think of everyone I am dragging through this process with me and I doubt whether a good man would be in a situation like this at all. It's humiliating not being able to walk around this town, to have my teaching licenses temporarily revoked, to have to walk around a frost bitten town, wanting to live life to the fullest, but look at every moment as the last time I'll see those things. I can't express the bodily fear and the physical sickness I'm feeling. I can't believe that these girls might actually get away with this. It's revenge on a Shakespearean level, and one girl has incited it through her bitterness and fear, and it has appealed to the hatred in the others. Some of these relationships are from the ages of 15 and I just don't understand why now, suddenly, this has happened. I consistently scared as I've spent at least 72 hours in police stations, with at least 15 hours of interviewing and my girlfriend is scared at every moment that they will come back and take me away. The female officers have been unprofessional, vindictive, sided with the girls, and ignored clear fabrications.

This isn't a cry for help, but more of a general outcry about these last few months. I can't see the justice, and I can't talk to my friends because all my university and local friends are potential witnesses or friends with the complainers. I just want this injustice to be heard, and invite anyone suffering in the same way to come forward. Every moment that passes is a constant struggle. I can't live a normal life any more, my happiness is all over the place, I went from drinking once a month and 6 day of exercise to a bottle of wine a day an no exercise. Meanwhile these girls are out in the town, drinking, taking photos, referring to this as the "gossip" and moving around on holidays in Europe. I have no hope, career, or meaningful way to inspire my brothers and sisters, or those who come from our background. All because one fearful and vengeful girl suffering from cocaine fuelled delusions believes that if these girls come together to cry their lies, that the justice system owes them my life sentence like a tissue to wipe dishonesty from their faces. It sickens me...and for the first time I'm scared.