CONTEXT: I have realized that all of my social habits are reaction-seeking, rappor-seeking, low-status, reactive, basically all that gay non-alpha shit. I know why they developed when they did, but now that I am improving myself, I see them for the gayness that they are. SO, I'm in the process of becoming and being myself as unapologetically as possible. I'm realizing more and more that I don't relate to most people. So, if I stay completely true to myself, I won't laugh too often, I won't talk too often, I may not even interact too often with people. The only things I like to do passionately are game bitches (I like to and am necessarily talkative then) and talk about self-improvement and maybe some sciences. But, besides those times, I'm generally pretty reserved, calm, disinterested, etc. I'm also learning to cultivate indifference, so soon I won't care about if relationships succeed or not. However, this apathy may lead me to kill off many potentially profitable relationships (ex: with some dude who is in a frat or some shit).

QUESTION: So, should I be true to myself and just be unapologetically calm, reserved, disinterested, "low-energy" with 95% of people and situations? Or should I spend a lot of time learning to be a cunning bastard even though I will be mostly disingenuous then? I like the idea of being machiavellian, but because it is decidedly unnatural for me most of the time, will trying to charm people be reaction-seeking?

UHH in the process of writing this I answered my own question, but I still want to see a red pill perspective.