I'm 19 and been dating my LTR for about 9 months now. When I first got with her, I was about 6 months into TRP and she was my 2nd plate that I quickly turned into an LTR after a few weeks. Now after a year and a half on TRP, my smv has grown massively and I have an insane amount of girls throwing themselves at me.

I'm not going to lie, she is a very good LTR. Only 2 previous partners, very loyal and clingy, she would do anything for me. But now, I want to end it and explore other girls and live just for myself. Ever since I got with her, I've been satisfied and going to the gym less, not eating well, and all of that just because of going to eat out, not having time, etc.

The problem is, I have no idea how to do this. There 70% of the time I wish we were just broken up and I can do my own thing, and the other 30% I know I would feel devastated if I broke up. She's done nothing wrong and loves me with all of her heart. I don't want to hurt her as I really do care about her.

Any help would be greatly appreciated, I can't get this out of my mind.