Met socially. Brand new social group, we all met through a social app.

Friends for a few months, meeting with a few others every weekend.

Movie night at her place, all the others end up bailing, ends up just me and her. Watch movie, snuggle up, we fuck.

I'm getting there, but still beta blue as hell sometimes, red pill'd it as hard as I know, this shit works we know. Mad.

She is very inexperienced, she tells me she has only had one guy, LTR, and he wasn't great. I can tell.

Also, this 8/10 reveals she basically never leaves the house, and we are the only friends she really has right now, or people she even talks to outside of family.

So about 6am we finally stop, she says she had fun, got off all the good things. I bring up making it FWB, she says she will think about it.

Fuck up 1 - I leave it at that. "Yeah cool, let me know".

Get a text, "Just got out of FWB with my ex after we split, thought about it and can we just stay friends" also "I dont want to hurt the group"

Fuck up 2 - "Yeah sure, I value your friendship more than blah blah beta blue bullshit" Just cucked myself maybe? Great.

And then the mother of all. Another movie night, her place, nobody shows again (but this time we pretty much knew that).

Cook with her in her kitchen, eat tea with her at her table. Listen to music together. Lie normally on the couch, not really touching. Watch movies with her.

Go home.

Great, so I just cucked myself. Didn't even try to press the point, because I'm a 'nice guy that wouldn't do that sort of thing'. I'm still digesting this pill here guys, alright. I have a lot of work to do yet.

So I'm sitting here tonight thinking, "what the fuck have you done." You know that was probably all just a giant shit test, you know being the 'nice guy' like you have been programmed wont end with what you want, so wtf?

So I come to you, my teachers, I know I done did a bad. Whats the next step here? I wanna get this plate spinning, is this recoverable?

Edit: Thanks for all the advice everyone. Plate is now spinning nicely.