So about me,

•21

•Lifting since 15

•started with trp 1~ year ago

•had 1 'real' relationship (more like slavery if look back)

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Im not sure where to start but I'll try to do it as transparent as I can so it's going to be pretty detailed and long. After I ended my relationship (last year) I started swallowing this big and bitter pill simultaneously with a friend that brought me to this place of truth. I worked out hard, read articles, watched videos of rsd and STARTED No Fap!

I experienced 'the superpowers' of No Fap, stopped procrastination, approached .... AND got successful! I told myself this is the way I wanna go. Had plates spinning, it was great and I didn't wanted to have a ltr for the next years. However I met this girl at my uni she was new, good looking (my perspective), fit, she was even a little famous in her city with lots of orbiters. A 'bud' of me approached her but there was a connection between her and me, but I let him (was still new to trp and thought alrite I got my plates he got none lets share her with him) do his thing and stepped back since I had my plates. Of course it came to this point that the 'connection' was so strong that whenever we saw each other flirted like hell nothing I could do about it at that time. We had our own little world. I brought her 1 time some food to work it was on my way but still I provided her + brought her some medicine to uni before we went together with uni on vacation. She said that im a way better person than my bud. You guys know what follows: 'you are so caring and thats the way i want to be treated' so cringe to write this but yh i believed these words 1 year ago. Nowadays I would burst in laughter Blablabla... she ditched my bud to seduce me... I was strong I resisted weeks but suddenly she asked me: 'hey what's with us' and I was like: 'nothing special I'm just having a good time with u.' (haven't fucked her yet just hj + bj). She said lets be together and I thought uhm we haven't had sex till yet and are knowing us for weeks it could become a serious thing and I said yes. (I KNOW that this is a big red flag that SHE approached me and ditched my bud -hypergamy- but I wasnt aware of this at that time)

To her past: •Had several sex partners (2 real relationships b4 me) 7-9 but yh girls lie about this number so whatever.

•She was partying every weekend, drinking lots of alcohol... red flags over red flags. •ditched a guy for me

but there are some green flags, she is investing in me (time, sex, cooking, the feel to be needed)

But the only value she adds to my

FAST FORWARD

I mostly stayed alpha but had some Beta behaviours just so you guys know that my armour has crackles. After some months 2-3~ I stopped reading that many articles went less to the gym... It became a Netflix relationship paired with with fucking. Dont get me wrong the sex was good + she initiated it mostly.

So we did another uni vacation were in a club, next day one of my best mates confront me that he and my 'main bitch' idk who initated it have necked on, just on the mouth they said no tongue a tiny kiss. She just knew him from parties and they have seen each other barely in the uni.

TBH im pretty relaxed she can dance, flirt with whom ever she wants IDC. I even accepted that after she has apologised a lot.

In addition I had to move 5h away from her due to my studies. We are having a LDR atm. We said if its getting worse she HAS the option to join me. But she would has to giveup nealry everything.

...however 1-2 months ago she kissed (or got kissed-doesnt matter) another friend of me on the mouth.

I said alright im starting to recognize these red flags shes definitely an impulse girl and living the moment. I need to get ready and prepare myself to NEXT her as soon as she doesnt respect my boundaries anymore (2 Times alrdy - Rule of 2 is actually what I follow - guess i got oneitis)

Yesterday she sent me a picture of her and her best girlfriends from a party (last saturday).

I said to myself ok its been 6 months now things getting serious. Is she worth my time + effort? I never controlled or checked her phone or forbid her to see / message someone. But at this point I needed to know can I invest in her? So I went looking for more pictures and found 3 in total, 1 really shady and doubtful. I would love to send her that one and start arguing but im here to improve myself and stay alpha as good as I can so I wont. Shes on there with a guy she called hot while I was there. Just knows him from parties...

Im aware of the Chads its alright but I need to be sure not to invest my time into someone who is not worth that.

Right now I started a soft NEXT.

She replied with: Goodnight even if u dont respond <3 ... Hey whats up why you dont responf? <3 Are you mad? ... Are you alive? ... I can see that you are / were online!! ... blablabla

The problem is I cant ignore her more than 2 days because I invited her to my place so she can meet my mom for the first time! She probably already booked a train + I need to tell her where to go from that station.

Should I cancel this weekend? How could I pass the shit tests? I will try to remain as calm as possible and not to enter her frame even if she cries I will tell her to calm down then we can talk. But Im already smelling the storm of the shit tests. Its gonna be a HUGE wave more like a tsunami of shit that is heading right to me.

Edit: The pictures are on the event page (fb) + 90% of the people know she has/HAD a boyfriend (me)

Best regards