I am depressed, for quite some time now. I stopped seeing my friends because I always felt they didn't care much about me anyway, they are not looking for me right now. Lots of things happened to me in the last one year and a half: my manipulative ex-girlfriend broke up with me leaving me with all sorts of traumas and paranoias, my father suffered a horrible work accident and died after months of agony, I quit my last job because my boss was abusive, now I'm unemployed and as a consequence I dropped out of college. My mom is kinda out of her mind because of all that happened. I live in Brazil and the whole corruption is very hard to live through, it directly affects my life. I'm tired. People have left me, my 'friends', my 'family', nobody cares, nobody helps, I wish I could just leave, there's no hope for me in this shithole. I wish I could go live somewhere else, but I have no money. I'm tired. Now I spend most of my time at home, sleeping, barely going out of my bed to eat and take my antidepressants that don't work anymore; sometimes I play videogames... I'm tired. But I have a plan to end this all, and I almost made my mind. It's a good plan, I will go in peace, maybe I'll put on some music, things are gonna be ok. This is the acceptance phase, I'm accepting my fate, it will be better this way. Soon, when the time comes, I'll post my last update. Thank you for listening.