I have been trying to figure as to why I harbor so much hatred and fear of women. In all I am sexually attracted to them and yet I have these ill feelings.

I could give a few insights about me, for starters by mother is very abusive and belittles me all the time. She has not once acknowledged my competency in my field.

My female teachers in school weren't very polite to me as I was a distracted and a very mischievous child, some of them openly made fun of me.

I cant tell for sure if the above reasons contribute to my hatred of women, but its as though I feel the women feel over-entitled and always seem to judge without having any regard for the background of any individual.

Compassion and empathy seem to be a concept out of a women's morals and ethics.

I don't have a complete picture though it seems women are pretentious and probably hate men just for the sake of it.

If someone could give insights, or convince me that indeed good women exist then I would feel better. I was an MGTOW (unbeknownst to me) all this while, and it doesnt seem to be that absolute right thing - especially when I want deep intimacy with one.

If there are more questions you would like to ask then please do, it would be helpful.