I've always had pussy on a pedestal, whether I had any woman on one or not. It's been an obsession to me, and I've had so much stress and self-hatred and I've compromised me and my mission so many fucking times, bros.
For an entire third of my adult life (16->26) I've based first my happiness, then my worth as a man, initially on the gf, then on the ability to get more girls. I still wish I were a player, but the truth is, I'm not, I'm not even close, and I think before I get back in to the game, I first need to pull my head out and live without it.

Without thinking about getting girls/improving my game, I feel lost, my fledgling software career seems boring, and the only thing I enjoy is lifting.
Girls were my mission, and while I'm distraught that I may hypothetically never make it, this bullshit has to stop - my career, friends, etc. need to occupy more important positions in my life, and I think cold turkey off women is the way to go for now.
I've gotten much better at banter, I still have some inner game work to do though.
Still a virgin, but the obsession has reached unhealthy levels.

Can anyone play devil's advocate?