I ask this because after 1.5 years of swallowing the pill and seeing the core of female hypergamy - I'm not emotionally awakened by the concept of female loyalty (pair bonding).

For some reason I'm more into women who are shameless, brash, and blunt about their sexual past and do not believe in the "Happily Ever After Narrative" that the media sells. Anytime I would run into a plate that actually connects with me as a person and "potrays" herself as low n- count I push away because based on my past experience she's either:

a) Trying to find what I like in a woman and mold herself into that to make me her BB

or

b) thinks it's too good to be true for me to be a man with his shit together that no longer believe in marriage/kids/house.

Overtime this has led to me preferring to spend time with faster plates when the more "stable and available" women would also be free on a given night. The emotionally available plates I'd let drop to the side - partially because of a distrust in the projection of sincerity as well as a fear of reverting to Beta mentality only to be broken AGAIN.

It's something about a woman who I can read as a slut who DOESN'T try to paint herself as a housewife. I value transparency and self-actualization after finding the red pill and when I come across a woman who can throw away the feminist narrative and own her hypergamy it makes me enjoy her company more. This is all assuming AWALT which I have painfully found to be sage-level truth since swallowing the pill.

This epiphany feels either very Redpill or very Anti-Redpill and I would greatly appreciate any insight. I'm rarely conflicted with my intuition as it relates to Red Pill and I feel like I might be hamstering.