I want out of the Red Pill. I want out of all the stupidly overbearing crap that it teaches you.

I'm grateful for it giving me pointers on what to avoid in women. But I hate that it never gave me any healthy advice on what green flags to look for.

Growing up, I had zero intuition. I'm still slowly learning. And I'm tired of looking at every woman and thinking she's a gold-digging leopard who would marry you and then make you broke through divorce (sure- a fair amount of women probably do this. But I really don't think all of you do, and I no longer want to pretend that you do either).

I'm tired of endlessly scrolling Reddit and finding new reasons to be insecure as an Indian man in a Western society where we're utilised as disposable elements without care for our humanity and the people we are underneath. I'm tired of reading things to watch out for, people to avoid, and hurtful behaviours to practice without having really interacted with people because of the pandemic.

I'm tired of looking at porn- something that stole my boyhood and teenagerhood. I'm tired of all the stupid BDSM shit that alpha male ideology teaches you to do with women. I'm tired of being indoctrinated to see women as sexual punching bags.

I'm tired of crying myself to sleep most nights. I'm tired of living in this skin, and being abused left right and centre. And I'm tired of being pathetic. I'm not entitled to sex or women by default, and that's OK. That's freeing. I don't care. I want to live for me. I want not to spend every moment being judged/and judging myself for my ability/inability to attract women. I'm tired of being conditioned to think this way about myself.