I started to realize I have some kind of trauma. I am in college now, but back in school and a little bit in high school I was bullyed by collegues. Not physical, but only verbally, like jokes/insults and stuff like that. Now what I observed at my behavior is: I hate when somebody laugh at me, I hate when people make me look like a fool. When any of these situations happens right now I am blocking myself and don't know how to react. Over the time I became overthinking in almost every aspect of my life and because of overthinking I do stupid things. At every thing I do/wear, I relate to the the guys that bullyed me and I ask myself what they will laugh about if I do/say this or if I wear this shirt (as an example). I feel a lot of ANGER inside me towards the guys who bullyed me. I was thinking to go to learn how to box, so I can discharge my angry energy there. My entire life I tryed to dont upset anyone, please anyone..so they can accept me. But I had enough!! How can I start to care less about what others think of me. Like to don't give a SHIT about what others will say/do if I will say whats on my mind, if I will do what I feel? Should I visit a psychologist? HOW TO LET GO OF MY PAST? HOW TO START NOT CARE ANYMORE OF WHAT OTHERS THINK OF ME? Please help.