A quick timeline:

18-21: virgin, no sex because of growing up in a conservative religious family. Ironically decided to go all out on porn because I couldn’t have a real woman. All sorts of categories, MILF’s, cheating wives, shemales, femdom, cuckolding etc.

21 - 22: start moving out of religious shell and want some sexual experience. I'm truly BP and can't get any girls interested. However, I manage to pull a girl one night from the club. Can't get my dick up. Start browsing online to search escorts and get excited over that. Eventually see a few and find that exciting. The nervousness and uncertainty of what to expect made me instantly hard. Saw a few street hookers and two transexuals because of my "fuck it and go all out" attitude. My relationship with sex becomes a) being alone watching porn or filtering online ads, b) watching others have sex, c) being in crazy situations such as a dodgy carpark.

23-24: Find out about TRP, learn game, learn about frame and learn to create sexual tension through interaction. SMV/lifestyle does not really need much work because of years of self-improvement already under my belt. Dick functions fine with escorts because of the thrill of not knowing the person and the risk of not knowing what I was putting myself into, and there's also no foreplay.

Eventually get a few girls to my place for sex, but I can't get it up, the excitement only comes in short waves where there is something thrilling such as the first kiss or the thrill of being seen. But in the bedroom, on the bed, no. This shit tests your frame to the max.

I've been with this girl now for about 3-4 months, HB8.5, tall, blonde, nice ass, and long legs. Decent LTR material, no Instagram, no Snapchat, no spending all day on phone, only a FB account without her real name. She's completely into me, wants to be used and dominated for my pleasure and while I've been sexually dominant and aggressive as I feel, I haven't been able to get it up to actually penetrate and fuck her.

Last night after a BJ, she brought it up. She'd briefly asked about it before and I'd mentioned porn. Last night she wanted to know more, felt unattractive and unwanted. Mentioned how her previous bf's would want to have her just from seeing her naked, and I was totally different, she felt hurt and sad. I told her a bit more detail about my experience and my sexual arousal. That physical attraction played a much smaller part than novelty and situational context for me. This morning she gave herself up to me again to be dominated. I wasn’t hard but used my hands to get myself off and her as well and she had positive body language when I left her. I have let her a little bit into this problem of mine but have taken responsibility, never put my emotional troubles on her, and said I’d need patience from her (I know not to expect it though, if she shows it then good, if not then so be it I’ll live with that).

I really need some guidance on how to navigate this. Last night has improved my resolve hundredfold to quite porn, chatting to escorts and dominatrixes online etc., I really want to know what its like to get hard by just seeing an attractive woman naked. Failing to get hard the first time creates anxiety and pressure and makes it harder on 2nd, 3rd etc. times.

How should I go about this situation, do's and dont's for the relationship and for the sake of my dick. I can get hard when fantasizing, watching certain types of porn and for brief moments with women. Has anyone overcome something like this? Any words of advice, or encouragement or a kick up the ass, a relevant link, something might stick and change my life please. Also, would you recommend me taking Viagra/Cialis or maca root, or would that make me too mentally dependant on that shit.