Need biography’s or an autobiography of a male role model

I read tons of psychology and self help books but I’m still weak. I want more male friends and to be respected. I believe through reading books that a male role model has written himself can help me get familiar with what is expected of me in the real world after swallowing the red pill. I’m not beta on the outside, but mentally I’m weak as fuck, because my parents both fucked me up. My dad always had me believe I was never good enough and my mom had abandonment issues she passed down to me. I want insight to what attracts men in a conversation to want to be in my tribe.