Pretty much fucked up big time. I’ve been dating my girl for 6 months and she’s been loyal, extremely nurturing and had 0 red flags. Super low N-count, young, strong family bonds.

Just confronted me today and showed me she caught texts of me planning to meet up with a girl I used to mess with, around when we just started being official. I never actually met up with the side girl and cheated, but obviously even half-way talking about it is cheating.

She needs time to think about what’s best for her, doesn’t know if she can trust me ever again and half of her love for me died.

Unfortunately this girl is/was a great development tool for me but from being jaded and unwilling to believe good relationships exists from my past experiences, I was selfish and sneaky at the start. I’ve changed since then, but she dug up and found the one thing I almost did before I realized she was nothing but good and respectful of me to death.

. But at this point there’s nothing else I can do. Learn from this, if she decided to return to me then it’ll be a big Mountain to climb, if she doesn’t a valuable lesson learn.

Im going no contact for now. I will begin to move on but allowing her the time to get past the anger and realize how important I am to her. She was dead in love with me respected me like a father.

What are the chances of me completely fucking our chances together from this past issue?

We never broke up, and never came to a conclusion except she needed time to make her decision. I will be fine regardless as I’ve been through this, but this time I fucked it up. Anyone gained respect and love again after doing something evil?