I'm not so sure on what to do anymore. I'm like the biggest loser to ever exist on this planet. Where I live, no one treats me like shit over my looks but at the same time having neutral treatment just doesn't cut it. I might also have positive treatment given to me, but I think there's a good chance that it's fake. I hate looking at myself in the mirror and seeing my sub 5 face (terrible eye area, decent jaw from the side but not square in the front, lower set cheekbones). And I don't want anyone virtue signalling to make me feel better about my current appearance. Because all of what I said, that's just the fucking truth.

I think I'll just run away and rot on the streets because I deserve it. The world is better off not having losers like me. Either that, or I should find ways to make money so I can get plastic surgery. It won't be a fix for my mental issues as the damage has already been done. I don't even know about wanting to go see a therapist anymore. I belong in a mental facility at this point because of my BDD.

Anyways, I've spoken about plastic surgery numerous times on this sub. I intially thought of getting canthoplasty to make my eyes better. Now, I'm thinking about getting double jaw surgery because it's not square/wide enough from the front. I might as well just do my entire face then. I might even consider buccal fat removal in case my face doesn't change after I lose body fat. Even if all goes well and I turn out better looking, I'll just stay single for life because I know for sure my future children will turn out ugly/deformed. Although I'm 24, I already know that I failed at life whether or not I end up getting surgery.