So I’m still in the relationship with the wife and I am miserable, mostly cause she shows me no emotion and doesn’t even touch me anymore. It’s been a year since I found out she cheated on me and life has only gotten worse. On the other side my 4 year old daughter who has a few medical problems woke up crying again tonight. I of course soothed her laid in bed with her and stayed with her til she feel back asleep. This is what holds me back the most from leaving. My love for my children and being there for them when they need me I feel out weighs my misery. I am at a point where I really don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t want to live in a world where I can’t be there for my kids when they need me... what happens if my son has a bad dream and I am not there, what happens if my daughter is sick and she needs me to comfort her. Do I just keep living in this charade of a marriage to be there for my children or do I leave to make myself happy and sacrifice there own happiness. My children are the most important thing in the world to me. Being a dad is the only thing I really feel like I am good at anymore. I know I am not my best with them right now but I feel like a “good” full time father is better than the “best” part time dad.