Hey, let me just start saying I’m 30 year old male who’s been with my wife my 10 years but married only 3. We have two kids. I kno my wife cheated on her last bf. We were so young then shit happens, but once a cheater always a cheater. As I later found out. I had red flags over years but no proof. A couple years ago. My spider senses started going off. I felt something was off. I immediately asked what was going on. Met with lies for abt 2 months. I collected all my proof n she came clean but lied abt who she was cheating with. As year went on she never stop talking to him I later found out. She swore to me she did and would never talk to him again. At end of day they fucking work together. The year was over and I forgave her. We started off fresh née year. She was all in this time. My trust was gon and I didn’t look at her same. I still loved her and didn’t wanna leave her n my kids. Far forward to end of last year. I told her I thought she needed to be single n I told her I felt she would always cheat on me. I couldn’t trust he anymore. We made up, but she had already rekindled something with man she bought all this hurt pain and anger with for almost a year. Of course she denied it. She started acting like she did year before. Same shit, she’ll just leave house without telling me where she going. We get in argument. U fucking married u can’t live a single life. She got off work, she usually home by a certain time. I call her. She gets mad n say I’m acting like her dad. Via text but dnt call me back. She’ll txt n say I’m coming home late. I ask any questions it’s a problem. She been pretty cool at moment. I feel like she’ll never stop talking to him even if it’s not sexual. I’m sure it is. I just feel I dnt deserve this. I ask God y man all time. I’m young male who take care of my wife and kids. Try best to do right. She’s evil towards me and damn near anybody. She treats me pretty bad, in return I kinda fell back n didn’t show her I loved as much as she wanted but. U can treat me like shit I’m im supposed to treat u like a queen. She’s done n said so much but I’ve still been there no matter what. I have to leave now, she doesn’t respect me at all. I’m tired of trying to not get on her bad side so she dnt leave me n see someone else. I’m just tired no matter how much I love her. I really dnt kno where to start with divorce papers in stuff. Where do I start, I can’t live like this anymore. I have one or two friends dat kno but no one else knows what I go through. I dnt really wanna tell family. I dnt want everyone in my business n judging n stuff. At end of day it’s between me, her and our kids. I’m just so lost. I’m just venting