So she asked me to go last night.

We have fights and there's a lot of tension between us but also there's love.

We been through hell but we did it together.

She asked me to move to her country so I had to quit my job and start a business in her country.

Things after some years didn't turn well. Mainly she messed up by trusting an accountant who pretty much ruined us, I never blamed her.

Now unemployed I am a burden to her.

She feels she has to do everything that's what she said always.

I cook, clean, wash do everything so I can feel useful untill I work again.

She has a good job so she feels secure.

Now when things are not well on the drop of a hat she will remind me how I am a burden.

Things escalated one time that she punched me ont he side of my head hard. I didn't retaliate, I would never.

She never apologized. Something that broke my heart.

But she wanted us to move on and be in love again, I couldn't bring my self to that.

I feel like an idiot, but to go to my country back to my family who called me an idiot for giving her a chance and ask them for money to travel.

I have to drive 20 hours and say goodbye to two little cats I love so much.

I have to go back and face people who expected me to fail .

I don't know, I honestly don't know. I feel empty and cold.