hello everyone, new to the group. I hope everyone is well.

right now im feeling stuck. I know the marriage is over and we are just waiting for the decree of divorce but for some stupid reason part of me believes shes still coming back. No matter how much I try to rationalize it or tell myself that its okay and you will move forward I just keep feeling stuck.

when I drop our son off back at her place I just have this pit in my stomach. almost like is he asking about me or is he missing me like I am missing him. I mean I sleep with one of stuff animals we got him and it hurts because he is so young that he doesnt understand why dad isnt around anymore.

what is some stuff yall have done to try and feel okay? cause rampant nicotine and caffeine use is not the answer for this. I quit drinking years ago and honestly i dont want to even think about it.