Hello. Me 24m and ex wife 25f divorced last October. I fell into a deep depression where I tried to end it by a self inflicted gsw to my chest. She watched me go down making promises that were never kept. She even told me she wants to have relations with other men so we should divorce. Funny that I'd take the gsw again rather than those words again. Those words hurt way worse. In essence I feel incredibly angry and want to know how I can relieve that anger. I can't forgive her and it seems to have taken over my life. I am in constant pain from my actions and have started to blame her for gaslighting me into this. She would say her favorite time of the day was when I left. She cultivated me into thinking "ok I'm so horrible that I shouldn't take up her time anymore and just end it. Nobody could possibly care about me." I have recovered physically yet still have chronic pain as well as ptsd from the trauma of the gsw. Any advice for me? I'm in therapy and am on medication so hopefully that will bear fruit so to speak. Thank you and God bless