I went home on Thursday (after viewing a perfect furnished apartment to rent) to say I was leaving for a few months to get 'space from the marriage' and decide if in or out. I couldn't do it. I saw my nice house and attractive (physically) wife and I said nothing. I went to bed anxious and feeling like a failure.

I can't tell if I lacked courage to do the right thing or if this is was intuition saying hold on.