My wife left me. Divorce was finalized two weeks ago. I had just graduated with my 2nd bachrlors, was going to teach but I was dismissed from student teaching so although I graduated I did not obtain my license.

I went back to school after falling into a career in supply chain/logistics, which I despised. I'm now looking for jobs back in that field because I'm currently sleeping on an air mattress in my brother's basement. Im not sure how long he'll let me stay.

I'm 38 now with 2 degrees of little worth, history and philosophy (was going to get my doctorate in philosophy originally, but then we met and I dropped that dream to work).

So, I have no wife, no career and no idea wtf to do. I spiral into suicidal thoughts frequently. I have enough money to feed myself for a while and fortunately have no car payment.

I just need advice. I feel totally lost. I loved her with all my heart and the divorce took me completely by surprise. No infidelity, no huge fight, just... One day... She drops it like a brick on my head.