End of March stbx wants divorce. No way to talk it through. She moves out a month later, the next week expresses regret and that she doesn't know what the future holds when it comes to us. I ask to talk about it, she says no. All the while and since I'm trying to put her behind me. This weekend she against expresses regret, and says if I follow a list she wouldn't want the divorce. She finally gets me the list yesterday. A lot of gray area on the list, I ask to talk it through. She wants to wait. I call her out on a bunch of things, ultimately that she's either playing me or doesn't know what the hell she's thinking. I should add that recently she stopped working for a job that paid for her education, and me supporting her education was on her list as one of the only concrete items. And also I'm caring for her dog 100% and told her right before her latest expression of regret I can't do it for much longer.

My gut told me to quash it right then on Saturday, but my dumb ass let my heart take the wheel. I do feel bad how things played out, but I'm relatively clearer knowing what the deal is going forward.