28m, never done anything romantic or sexual cuz a lot of ambiguous reasons. I feel like girls/women hate me. When i'm randomly walking on the street, i can sense girls/women looking at me, pointing at me, insulting me, whispering bad stuff about me, and, if my eyes met their eyes, i can see a disgusted look or a mocking smile on their face. All because of my look, of my body.

I'm at a point i can't even watch a movie with a female protagonist, or listen so a song with a female voice, cuz i feel very bad imagining that person or that voice hating me, insulting me. If a girl act kind, i just see it as pity, pity towards an ugly stupid subhuman.

Someone say i'm paranoid, that i look perfectly normal, i tried with therapy but the therapist just told me therapy is useless for me, and to see a psychiatrist. I refused cuz i don't want to take medicines.

I just would like to find a way to not join misoginy, inceldom - however its called, to not hate back, to not have bad feelings.

I cannot ad more details cuz i don't have enough time now, but i wanted to open this. Any idea pls?