Hello,

I used to be pretty active on this subreddit for a while, maybe some of y'all recognize my name.

I wanna keep this mega short:

In the time that I haven't been active in this community I've been in intense trauma therapy, continuing a long term relationship with someone I am sure who loves me, and been investigating my life from the foundations.

Turns out that I most likely have a personality disorder (either borderline or narcissism). Reading up on these, I learn info that directly applies to how the red pill caught me, as well as all those negative thoughts and paranoias on women etc.

This is a PSA: If you feel a huge dread or depression or obsession over TRP, there is a good chance that there's something MAJOR that you aren't paying attention to within your psyche. Look at your childhood, look at your relationships, look at your reactions. Take nothing as given and question everything your mind says.

It's probably all way bigger than you realize. You're probably very bad at being a human being and you gotta learn from the very beginning. Go get help.

That is all.