I think many go through this phase, but I think redpill is comically stupid, and based on pure delusion. But I continue to struggle with on a daily basis with being jaded by blackpill concepts, because the base of it does have scientific backing. Looks are an obvious advantage, I think everyone on the planet realizes this, but I still think many people still gloss over how much power you have in the dating world if you are over 6 foot. By looking through the blackpill science sub, I'm also now convinced penis size matters a shit ton. The A spot, is what I'm referring to, I find that information really disappointing. As for looks I'm not terribly bad off, I'm 5'9.5" and I consider myself good looking, but it's in more a pretty boy type of way. I'd describe myself as a poor mans Jordan Barrett. But, I still just feel like I'm not remotely good enough, it's hard not to compare myself to other taller men that are more handsome in a masculine looking way. I'm very sensitive to the idea of cheating, because it's the cause of my parents divorce, I worry constantly about facing it in my own relationships. I've already kind of experienced some humiliation, a girl that I liked in high school suddenly quit talking to me when I thought all was well, and began dating an athletic guy that towered over me by several inches. I can't shake the idea that if I get a girlfriend, she'll quickly cheat on me for someone bigger and stronger with a massive peen. And then I have the thought, that if a woman finds me to be attractive by her standards, she'll only like me for that and not my personality, as my personality and social skills are pretty lacking. I don't know, I just constantly feel stuck.